Going to Bed After Moments of Chaos

Do you ever have days that just wipe you out? Days where one thing happens after another that makes you want to scream or collapse on the floor? Do you ever have just moments in a day that wipe you out? Not even whole days but just moments that make you want to scream or collapse on the floor?

I sure do. Those moments just happened.

And when those days happen, when those moments happen, I have to remind myself I'm not alone and am seen. I have to remind myself I am valued and am loved. At the end of the day I have to remind myself of God's good graces and His fresh mercies. 

Tonight Katherine and I pulled into the driveway, after running a couple errands and stopping to see Spencer at work, parked the car, and gathered up our stuff to take inside. I quickly realized, as I got her out of her car seat, the lovely cheap diapers I got to save money are so not worth the few dollars saved. My sweet girl was soaked and after carrying her into the house I was soaked too. And that ushered in a chaotic half hour. The next few minutes were filled with dogs barking crazily to be fed and let out, searching for one dog down the street after realizing the earlier storm blew the gate open, going to the bathroom and realizing there was no toilet paper left, scrubbing permanent marker off the kitchen cabinets freshly drawn on by a little girl that loves to color, and cleaning up nasty dog vomit.

As one thing happened right after another, all I could do after a few chaotic minutes was wipe away a few tears of exhaustion, throw up my hands and say, "I give up. It's bedtime." 

They weren't big things by any means. But they were little things that piled on top of each other in a short amount of time after a day fighting off a headache, and those crazy few moments made me feel so alone and tired, weak and weary.


So to those of you who are climbing into bed tonight completely exhausted, know you are not alone; you have a God who is with you, who is Immanuel, and you have brothers and sisters walking beside you in this life journey.

If your day was filled with moments that weren't glamorous and didn't seem social media worthy, be reminded you are valued and loved; you have a Creator that intimately knows you and deeply cares about you, and you have brothers and sisters that love you and celebrate you.

If you're laying in bed tonight wiping away tears, know your tears are seen and matter; you have a Heavenly Father that sees you and sees every tear you cry, and you have brothers and sisters weeping with you, mourning with you, hurting with you.

To those of you wishing things were different or certain prayers were answered, know your desires and prayers are heard; you have a God that loves hearing your heart's desires and delights in giving you gifts, and you have brothers and sisters cheering you on and praying for you.


We are in this together, brothers and sisters. You are not alone. Our God sees each of us in our mundane moments and carries each of us through our weak moments. And our God is good and faithful. He works everything together for our good and His glory. Reflect on today and you'll see it was full of His graces and and look forward to tomorrow because it will be full of His mercies. And let's practice gratitude, even after, especially after, our moments of chaos. Gratitude will remind us that we are seen, loved, known. Gratitude will take us to the heart of our Father and will bring us peace at the end of a chaotic day. 

His grace got us through today and His mercies are coming new in the morning. Rest well tonight, friends.