This week has been off to an ugly start. Sunday afternoon my sweet Katherine and I got sick within minutes of each other. Her poor, helpless little self was so scared and confused and shaken up. After she got sick the first time we went up to the bathroom so she could sit in the bathtub, but that's when I ended up helpless myself, hunched over the toilet. And that left my little one even more scared and confused and shaken up. My heart ached as she stood there crying and I could not comfort her. Eventually we both got cleaned up and Spencer soon got home from work. My dear husband's heart was broken as his girls were weak and hurting. He took the brunt of Katherine getting sick throughout the rest of the day, having to change his shirt at least five times. My body ached and was so weak, and my heart hurt because I couldn't help with Katherine. Thankfully our sweet girl eventually fell asleep Sunday night, and hadn't thrown up again until last night. Her little body has needed lots of extra rest to recover. As we've spent the past few days emotionally and physically recovering (as well as recovering from the mounds of laundry), the Lord has been faithful to whisper His sweet truths to me.
These past few days haven't been fun; in fact they've just been ugly. But on these ugly days, His grace is still sufficient. His love is constant. His faithfulness is sure. As my sweet Katherine lay against her daddy so scared by what was happening with her body, he just kept holding her, not caring about the mess, not thinking about anything else except for comforting his little girl. Even when the circumstances were crazy and she didn't understand what was going on, he held her and said, "I've got you. Daddy's got you. It's okay." We all have ugly days, ugly weeks, and sometimes ugly seasons. This hasn't been a fun season for us; it has been an ugly one. But we press on. Because in these moments of pain, brokenness, despair, we know that our Heavenly Daddy is holding us, comforting us, and saying, "I've got you. It's okay. Daddy's got you." He is so faithful to redeem our pain. He restores our brokenness. He rescues us from despair. He knows the ugly moments will pass, and yet, in those moments of chaos and confusion He whispers gently that He is here. He knows. He sees. And as He comforts us, we can press on. Because in our weakness, He is made strong. And the strength we gain through the ugly days is beautiful. And our God is a redeeming God; He uses it all for our good and His glory. We can press on and keep carrying our crosses no matter how momentarily heavy they may be. Because the weight of glory is far greater. And Jesus is the prize. And He has gone before us and goes with us now. And He carried His cross which gives us strength to carry ours. And He is worth it. He is so worth it.
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Sarah ConnatserSarah loves Jesus and her family and is passionate about addressing the urgent spiritual and physical needs around the world. She is the wife of Spencer and mama of Katherine and Claire, and they live in Nashville, TN. She runs a photography business with her husband and writes in order to offer encouragement and invite others to choose grace, joy, and gratitude in the adventure and the mundane. She loves traveling and reading; she will choose unsweet tea over sweet and bootcut jeans over skinny; and she is all sorts of awkward with small talk but thrives with deep conversations. |